Dear friends,
Thank you for your prayers. This week
has been a week with family, which has meant the kids have cousins to
run/play with all day long, which is a great joy for them and a break
for me. I have been able to get some quiet times - for prayer,
journaling, and more naps that I care to admit. It has been restful,
though I realize how tired I am, that I am not more refreshed!
I
have realized that with some of the decisions facing us, I need wisdom
from above, and also I need the Lord to provide in ways that are beyond
my current resources. I am still seeking to find a good plan for Katie
this spring. I think I/we may need some place to process some things as
a family, so can your pray for the Lord to provide pastoral counsel of
some sort. Pray for my own heart - I have started meditating on Psalm
40, and finding that while I affirm as true what it says about God, I
find myself distrustful - I don't want to entrust myself to God in hope
that he will set my feet again on a solid rock. (I know that he HAS
done that for me in Christ - and maybe that is the only way my feet are
secure - but to believe in His goodness and plan for us going forward is
where it is hard). Wondering what He wants to do in my heart, not sure
how to pursue Him in it.
Thanks friends.
Matt
Thanks for the update Matt. Praying for you!
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ReplyDeleteThanks for the update. I can only imagine how tired you are. I will be praying specifically for the Lord to bring the right kind of pastoral care to you and the kids that will help you not only know in your mind that your feet are set on a solid rock but would also experience that in your heart. Also that you will be able to experience emotionally the goodness and joy of the Lord.
You are often in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Jeanie
What a gift for the kids to play with their cousins, and for you to get much needed sleep. Elijah comes to mind, when God cooked him breakfast: arise and eat, the journey is too great for you.
ReplyDeletePraying you continue to find rest for your soul as you traverse this land of grief. Asking our Father to provide the right person to help you and your littles process, mourn, question, cry, and heal. Trusting that he will bind the broken hearted and hold you fast, regardless of how shaken you may feel. You are loved.
Peace,
Dana
Matt - thank you for the update. We will pray that you and the kids enjoy more joyful/restful breaks like the past week. Also praying that you will see God provide - a plan, a place to process, a pastoral counselor. Asking Him to grant you wisdom in your decisions, abundant grace as you continue to mourn, and perseverance as He continues to reveal what He desires to do in your heart.
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